My Peace I Give To You
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give it to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid.” The world considers peace to be an external thing. Certain external conditions must be met. Peace, according to the world, is when there is no war, or fighting, or argument. These conditions can be met and yet a person can have no peace because real peace is an internal thing. The funny thing is the peace that Jesus is talking about is that the world can be raging and yet there can be peace inside of us. The world will always rage. Twelve steps calls this internal peace “serenity.” Serenity is hard to describe. It is a state of being. One knows when one is in it and one is not.
If you are living in resentment you probably don’t know what it feels like. Resentment is our number one addiction. Resentment is anger that is held onto. Anger is no problem that is felt, addressed and let go. Do what’s in my power and move on. It’s not to say it won’t take time, but we can still feel confident. Resentment is when we hold on and hold other people responsible for our feelings. When we become wise we realize that our feelings are about us and not the other person. No one can make me feel angry much less can anyone make me happy. When we resent, we are letting go of our control and peace in our life and giving control of our life to another person. Talk it out, see the pattern, do what you can and surrender it to God. We are powerless over other people no matter how much we are angry and resent. Turn our will over to God and trust God with our life. God is the one who will give us peace not the other person because only God can heal us and God will ultimately heal all our wounds.